Changing my point of view

I’m changing.
I feel like I’m changing.
I don’t know exactly what but I feel it.

Is it my hair?
Is it my eyes?
Or maybe it’s the way I talk?

I’m not the same person I was before.
Is this a good thing? I hope so.

I cut off strings that were not good for my mental health.
I started to appreciate the little things I have in my life.
I made mistakes but it made me wiser.

We don’t have to physically see changes in the mirror
to know we’ve grown or we’ve changed.
And growth is always beautiful.

Songs to either breakdown or breakdance. You decide.

A fun song with sad or sometimes even dark lyrics. It’s like hiding the pain from the catchy and happy beats. These are some of the songs that I know will make you dance (or at least bop your head) and cry at the same time. It’s possible. Speaking from my own experience.

“All that I want
Is to wake up fine
Tell me that I’m all right
That I ain’t gonna die” -Hard Times, Paramore

First up in this list is the song Hard Times by Paramore…

I finally learned to acknowledge my feelings.

Honesty is often very hard. The truth is often painful. But the freedom it can bring is worth the trying. ” — Fred Rogers

What do you do when you experience conflict? Do you bottle up your feelings and hope that it will go away after some time? Does it work? Probably not. …

A fairytale-like love story.

He was once the perfect guy.

The guy who wrote poems and songs just for her.

The guy who knew how to make her smile with his “oh-so-pretty” words.

The guy who she first held hands with while watching the sunset.

The guy who loved it when she laughs because she was his happiness.

The guy who twirled her like a princess in the mall.

The guy who taught her how to be fearless and widen her horizon.

The guy who made it possible to be mean but sweet at the same time.

Now it seems like it was all just another wonderful fairytale-like dream and she had to wake up.

The story of how a live show made me fall deeper into a band.

This is my entry for The Riff’s writing challenge: Tell Us About Your Favorite Live Shows. I know it’s a little late and I know it will probably be a little different but I hope you’ll still take the time to read my story.

Back in college I was never really allowed to go to concerts because I was still a “teen” and they won’t let me go out during late hours (8:00 onwards). I had strict parents y’all don’t laugh at me. I only got my much-awaited freedom when I graduated and by then I was into K-pop.


Solitude and silence

You’ve become so used to your “Home”

That flowers now bloom in it.

That’s okay,

There’s nothing wrong with being comfortable in your own bubble

Everyone needs to crawl back when the world gets too harsh outside.

They seem to always have a special place in our hearts, right?

I have always loved music ever since I was a child. Now that I’m in my 20’s, I noticed the songs I listened to when I was a teenager hold so many memories and I find myself listening to them from time to time.

After doing some research, I have found that this is actually caused by a psychological phenomenon called the Reminiscence Bump.

A Reminiscence Bump is where you remember more memories from ages 10 to 30 than any other point in your life.

How music stimulates our brain

To further understand…

You make me smile.

[Coffee makes me happy, too]

I can stay up all night and not get sleepy when I talk to you.

[Just like when I drink my favorite cup of coffee]

You bring out my happy, energetic, fangirl side.

[Guess what, coffee gets me hyped, too]

Thank you for always being there for me!

Writer’s block. Every. writer’s. worst. nightmare.

*sips coffee* …

*stares at the clock* …

*looks at the blinking cursor on the laptop* …

As a fellow writer, we’ve all been there before, that feeling of dreadfulness that swallows up our body as we stare at our computer hoping for the words or ideas to come out of our head so we can continue writing. It’s not a pretty phase at all. So I made a list of things I did to help me get out of that zombie-ish state. Hopefully this tips work for you too!

Take a break

I know it seems…

// Spring [Pink]

Flowers, flowers everywhere. Our love blossomed like pretty Tulips on a wonderful park. In my eyes it was the most beautiful thing I ever saw.

//Summer [Yellow]

Yellow and hot. Like the bright Sun. It shined so bright, but I still liked it.

//Autumn [Orange]

Falling leaves. Like the leaves slowly dancing mid-air, I watched it all fall apart. There was nothing I could do to stop it.

// Winter [Blue]

The Sun left us. Now I’m shivering as I sit in the park where the Tulips used to grow. It’s still a beautiful view, but I liked it more when the flowers were still there.

Nikka Abby

I’m a programmer who loves to write poems, music recommendations and other fun stuff. Email —

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